Why? (p.s. this is my 100th blog post)

If you’re the observant type, you probably noticed my blog title and little catchphrase: “Developing Brakes: the art of slowing down”. This week while explaining to someone how to find my blog, I remembered why I chose that title. You see, I like to go fast. I like to do. I like to move. Generally, I like being busy, with lots of people to see and things to do. I enjoy working hard, and spending hours doing something I love.

Now, I don’t think there is anything wrong with any one of these desires. But I can reach a point where I forget why I’m going, doing, and moving. I do things without purpose or meaning. Or I go so fast that I miss out on the little moments. You know, the ones where you’re supposed to “smell the roses”. It’s like I’m on a rollar coaster, screaming and laughing and shutting my eyes. Sure, I’m having fun – but I have no idea what I passed on my wild ride through. I couldn’t tell you what was in the blur, or if it was important at all.

rollarcoasterSo I like to say that my life, and my spirituality, is all about developing brakes. The art of slowing time. Of taking time to see, reflect, wonder. I want to move at a pace where I can dream and be. To be able to experience the energy and excitement of running ahead, interspersed with times of stillness, silence, and the grace of a moment.

Tonight after a day of homework, conversations, games, going, and doing, my husband and I snuggled up in our pjs. We just finished a movie, and the room was utterly still. I ran my fingers through his hair, as he laid on the bed next to me, and my mind began to come up with all the things we could do – play a game, watch a show, work on a scrapbook. But then I felt myself stop, and soak in the moment. I remembered how much I love him, how nice it is be together. I took a deep breath and felt my body relax. I smiled.

This is why I want to learn the art of slowing down, of developing brakes. Because life goes quickly, and if we’re not careful, we’ll miss the beautiful moments in the blur.


  1. That was my favorite post ever. Happy ending. Lovely. =) I miss you, friend! I would call you, but i no longer have a cell phone; at least for now. But enjoy the slowing down this holiday. 16 days till Christmas!

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