The other day I came across this quote by Pierre Teilhard in my prayer book: “Above all, trust in the slow work of God. We are quite naturally impatient in everything to reach the end without delay. We would like to skip the intermediate stages. We are impatient of being on the way to something unknown, something new. And yet, it is the law of all progress that it is made by passing through some stages of instability – and that it may take a very long time. Above all, trust in the slow work of God, our loving vine-dresser.”
It got me thinking about the in-bewteen times of life, the parts where we’re “on the way to something unknown, something new”. I don’t particularly enjoy these times. They are rather uncomfortable. My body feels anxious and tense. I want to know what’s coming up, what’s next. And I just want to get there already.
But what if it’s the “stages of instability” that are growing and shaping me? What if, it’s precisely in the “slow work of God” where living truly happens?
I don’t have to have a job, know what’s going to happen after this year, or what I’ll be doing the rest of my life to live, to breathe, to create. I can find community and beauty in these uncomfortable moments, the ones where I don’t have it all figured out. Perhaps the tension will leave me more alive than ever.